Post by texans08 on May 1, 2006 14:28:36 GMT -5
Z- have you thought anymore about raising this kid by yourself?
K-yes
Z-and?
K-no
Z-why not?
K-I told you my reasons, you know my reasons!
Z-I heard what you said
K-and you think there's more. you think that there is another reason why i want to give up this baby. there's another reason why i don't want ryan to raise him.
Z-you barely touched your breakfast.
K-You know what? I don't have to have another reason where Ryan is concerned ok?
he brought this upon himself. Going off on that cliff and playing dead for all of those months..that was the worst thing he could have ever done to me or anyone else and he does not deserve this baby, he does'nt even deserve to be happy.
Z-because he hurt greenlee so badly.
K-Forget greenlee! i'm talking about how much he hurt me!
*commercial*
K-When Ryan rode off that cliff, he did'nt just leave greenlee, he left me. I had to be strong for his widow but it hit me just as hard as it hit her. i loved him too. and i already lost him twice. loosing him again? like that...how is someone supposed to get through it?
well..i'll tell you how how. you make it mean something. grief, grief made me offer to carry Ryan's baby and i did'nt just do it for her, i did it for me too.
I, I wanted to keep a part of him alive. I did'nt even totally hate the idea of this baby being partly mine. There was something sort of magical about the whole thought of this being part Ryan and part me.
Then, fast forward to life as we knew it, awful life as we knew it. wreckage does'nt even begin to describe the awful disaster that ryan brought back with him.
So if he thinks that he can just walse off with my son, and live happily ever after, when he single handedly destroyed my life, well..oh..he's got another thing coming to him.
Ryan wants to take my child away from me, far away from me so that i won't feel pressure to be a part of his life. Well, he does'nt get to do that, he does'nt get to leave me again. Ryan will NOT leave me again, I decide who keeps this baby and it's not Ryan!
**she takes a breath puts her head on her head and sits**
Oh my god, oh my god, listen to me, what am i doing? what am i doing? Ryan and i have been broken up for how many years? we broke up how long ago? he fell in love with greenlee, I fell in love with you.
He's apologized to me more times than i can count, For EVERYTHING! I'm crazy, I'm loosing my mind, I'm like this vindictive bitch and i just keep making him pay for it over and over again. I just keep blaming Ryan for this but this really isn't Ryan, it's me, I"m the one to blame.
K-yes
Z-and?
K-no
Z-why not?
K-I told you my reasons, you know my reasons!
Z-I heard what you said
K-and you think there's more. you think that there is another reason why i want to give up this baby. there's another reason why i don't want ryan to raise him.
Z-you barely touched your breakfast.
K-You know what? I don't have to have another reason where Ryan is concerned ok?
he brought this upon himself. Going off on that cliff and playing dead for all of those months..that was the worst thing he could have ever done to me or anyone else and he does not deserve this baby, he does'nt even deserve to be happy.
Z-because he hurt greenlee so badly.
K-Forget greenlee! i'm talking about how much he hurt me!
*commercial*
K-When Ryan rode off that cliff, he did'nt just leave greenlee, he left me. I had to be strong for his widow but it hit me just as hard as it hit her. i loved him too. and i already lost him twice. loosing him again? like that...how is someone supposed to get through it?
well..i'll tell you how how. you make it mean something. grief, grief made me offer to carry Ryan's baby and i did'nt just do it for her, i did it for me too.
I, I wanted to keep a part of him alive. I did'nt even totally hate the idea of this baby being partly mine. There was something sort of magical about the whole thought of this being part Ryan and part me.
Then, fast forward to life as we knew it, awful life as we knew it. wreckage does'nt even begin to describe the awful disaster that ryan brought back with him.
So if he thinks that he can just walse off with my son, and live happily ever after, when he single handedly destroyed my life, well..oh..he's got another thing coming to him.
Ryan wants to take my child away from me, far away from me so that i won't feel pressure to be a part of his life. Well, he does'nt get to do that, he does'nt get to leave me again. Ryan will NOT leave me again, I decide who keeps this baby and it's not Ryan!
**she takes a breath puts her head on her head and sits**
Oh my god, oh my god, listen to me, what am i doing? what am i doing? Ryan and i have been broken up for how many years? we broke up how long ago? he fell in love with greenlee, I fell in love with you.
He's apologized to me more times than i can count, For EVERYTHING! I'm crazy, I'm loosing my mind, I'm like this vindictive bitch and i just keep making him pay for it over and over again. I just keep blaming Ryan for this but this really isn't Ryan, it's me, I"m the one to blame.